Almost a month later...

ok, so I like having a blog. I just don't really have enough courage to put the thoughts of mine that are actually interesting up here. They might cause conversation, and that would not be necessary.

Anyway, the past few weeks are seeming to be a constant struggle. First off, work. I work at Dominos as most of you know. I am an assistant manager at my store. I have given my manager pretty open availability around my frisbee schedule and the importance of church to me. However, I keep running into the same problem. He schedules me to open Sunday morning. Which means, there at 10 AM. It doesn't stop there. I am often also scheduled to close on Saturdays, which means, I am there until at the very minimum 1AM. These two things together make it EXTREMELY hard for me to make it to church. There is only one church with a service around those times and it is the famous Thomas Road, and the service is at 8:30.
Here's where I run into the other areas of my life that satan is really tugging on me. I have not been able to sleep very well lately. I have even been using Tylenol PM's SIMPLY SLEEP, on occassion, with hopes of a fuller night. The sleep that I get is good, it's just the initial act of GETTING to sleep that I am having trouble with. Which leads to point 3. I wake up and I go to work. I am there at 9:30 fresh out of bed, and I don't usually leave until atleast 6 PM. As we all know, pizza is not good for you to eat on a daily basis. I however don't have the money to bring food with me every day. All of this adding up to not eating lunch most days, or breakfast for that matter. When I get off around 6 or later, I have also been around food all day and just don't want anything right then. If I am lucky, I will get hungry soon, or my friends will force me to eat SOMETHING. I refuse to eat too late, its not good for you. Lately though, my body seems to be getting use to small portions of food, therefore when I DO eat, i feel sick if it is more than a small portion. So there are days when not eating at all FEELS like a better option.

I'm not stressed, I love my job, I love food, I don't feel tired. I just sort of feel like I don't have time in my life or the $ for food, or time even for sleep sometimes. I'm sure that sounds stupid, but it's how I feel. I would rather be out late with friends and know that I will have to be up early the next day than to go home and sleep and miss out. Sure, you can say this is unhealthy, but I feel like my problems really begin to come when this pattern of my current lifestyle changes. The people I hang out with also keep "Domino's hours".. so it really is just convenient to stay up.

I don't know where I am going with this, I guess I just want to ask that you be praying for me. I feel like I have so much on my mind lately that I just choose to not think about it. Not thinking about it is hard, but I guess God knows all about it and will work things out with out my unecessary stress added to it.
I see the stress added to others lives and also the laziness in the lives of people who don't care enough to do a thing about life. There has to be an in between!
well, anyway.. I hope you are all well!! I will try desperately to make it to church next sunday and eat a full meal every day. Love you all!

God in my resting, be my Everything.
its possible
Kristi

Kristi